thankful

Have you ever met someone and your life changed for the better? It happened to me this year. The things I have learned about myself this year, partly because of this person, blows my mind. I've said it before but it's totally worth saying again: "It's funny how day by day, nothing changes. But, when you look back, everything is different." It's one of those things....sometimes, I stop and think "how in the world did I make it this far living like this?!" It's funny how things work out...

I wish I could really explain to him just how much he means to me. How awesome, smart, exciting, passionate, and amazing he is. He never believes it. Sometimes it's sad to me that he doesn't see those things. But then I am reminded that once upon a time, until just recently, I didn't see those things about myself. And if I did, I didn't believe them. Society and those who are close to us has a weird way of messing those up for us. We all have our own demons to battle. There's another saying that is something along the lines of "If everyone put their problems into a pile and saw what everyone is struggling with, we'd go back and get our own problems". We have to be willing to let the past make us better...not bitter. That is something I'm still learning. I can't beat myself up for something that happened to me in high school or college. I have to learn to accept that it happened and let it go. Sometimes, I have no problems with that but other times...it's like facing a fate worse than death.

One of these days he'll finally believe me, the same way I finally believe him.

I have a lot to be thankful for this Thanksgiving.